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Could you pity a child
And look the other way?
Or see all the pain in someone's eyes
And not be sorry?
Do you even know what its like
To be pushed around
Like you're a petty posession?
Or be held in someone's arms for a while,
Then returned to your cell?

Madiha M.K

How I met Su (Valleygurlfrmhell).

We met at the curious and antisocial age of 14, yet there was nothing antisocial about us.

On a dark, cold night, my brother and i, along with our mother, drove to pick Su and her family up from a previously agreed meeting point near Dream Park in Egypt. Su and my teenage brother had been involved in an online relationship for some time, and the call for family visits was due.

Su and her energetic and charismatic middle aged mother spent a few days in our appartment building on the roof in our humble guest flat. Su, the ever elated and hysterical girl with a bit of punch, and I, stayed up all night laughing, giggling and messing around. We were best friends easily and instantly, and still are. Her relationship with my brother...not so much, it would seem. Until the outside observer looked passed the rough patches, arguements and playful quarrels, could a endearing bond be found. Whether it was true love or not - nobody knows. In fact, the couple are still baffled at times about that matter. But our love for eachother surpassed any obstacles and till this day, i have a wonderful and insightful person to be thankful for, for having experienced some of the best times, despite my dysthymic life.

One could say.. She is to me as Mania is to Bipolar Disorder. The ever bright, whimsical one with dreams and aspirations. The part of me I could have sworn I was, with my eyebrows furrowing as I search inside myself, whilst being shadowed by fear and depression. She is who I am. Or was... She is who I wish I could be. In many ways, we are one.

Melancholia

Have a thought in my mind

But no words to say

Have a story to tell

But the page is blank

Heavy hearts are meant to cry...

Then come the sighs and lullabyes

Those silent moments between the highs

The pouring melancholy that sets you free

But when awake, wont let you be

A storm is brewing

The weatherman has been absent too long

Too much care is gone

Cloaked by dark clouds that dont give a damn

Theres always heaven, I say

But so overdue are the crimson streams

....

Madiha M.K

Bento Dreams: Planning Lunchboxes for University!

I've been surfing the net like crazy during my juice fast, with my mouth watering over several gorgeous and delicious raw vegan recipes (yeah didn't know raw could look THAT good!). Also, I've been looking up bento lunches, which are japanese lunches at JustBento . I'm supposed to gently break my fast next Monday with mostly raw veggies and fruits. So here are a few Raw and Cooked foods I'm thinking about making for my lunches (Or the upcoming breaking fast-days).

Raw:

Hemp Seed Truffles

I love the idea of these. However, I can't get hemp seeds, so I think I'll use sesame seeds or almonds instead :). Maybe even dilute the raisins with some leftover juice pulp. Recipe here.

Raw Brownie

 

Now this is something I've been craving for a while! Brownies :D. Recipe here.

Lunch Froodles

When I saw this, I thought to myself "why don't I just peel fruit into strips like zucchini pasta??". I hadn't thought of it before, and this dish looks delicious! I think I'd skip the papaya and use banana instead. Maybe reduce the avocado and add some pine nuts and pomegranate seeds. Yum! Recipe Here.

Spring Veggie Namul with Crabstick

Although this is a Japanese side dish, I'd totally make this my main lunch dish! I absolutely have a weakness for crab sticks, they are probably my most favorite food ever. I'd probably marinate these veggies instead to be less crunchy and mimic that cooked texture, and substitute the crab sticks with real crab or roasted cashews/pine nuts. Recipe Here.

Easy Lunch Lasagna

It's all about texture. Who would have thought that slicing cucumbers like pasta would look and sound so good?? I LOVE this idea! Unfortunately I don't have access to nutritional yeast for the pine nut cheese, but I'll use commercial vegan cheese instead :3. Recipe Here.

Japanese Omelet

I've always wanted to try these ever since I've watched anime and BOF. However, since these are eggs, I won't be able to for quite some time (I'll be detoxing post juice fast). So I remembered raw dehydrated cinnamon banana pancakes I made when I went raw for 30 days two years ago. If I just dehydrate it on low heat in the oven overnight, it should be gummy enough to roll :3. add some walnut bits to the mix, then drizzel liquid stevia on top and you're good to go! I think I'll use a third of the flax seeds mentioned.

  

I'll have to finish this post later. the neice wants my comp! lol.

Day 7 and 8: Juice Fasting

Day 7: I think I felt the best on this day!! I had so much energy that I stayed up till 6am! lol. I noticed a pattern here, my energy levels tend to be higher at night. Either because my sleeping schedule is off (I wake up at noon), or I tend to drink more juice at night. Weight: 66.7 kg.

Day 8: Today was a little slow and sluggish. I felt weak and tired. But its because I didn't have proper breakfast (only half a glass of melon juice). My mom takes insulin so she needs to drink a lot of juice at one sitting, so I woke up to no more juice left for me :(. I was too weak to fix myself anything other than little melon juice and just had green tea with honey (which is so filling and satisfying!). Another pattern I've noticed is I tend to stay the same weight for two days straight, or even gain, but then on the third day I drop about half a kg. Weight: 67.3 kg.

On another note, university starts this Sunday! It's the 2nd half of my third year studying Broadcasting. Subjects I'll be taking are Studio Production, Video Production, Broadcast Writing (Arabic this time), Broadcast Performance (also in Arabic this time! boy the tables have turned) and Introduction to Management. Last semester I took writing and performance in English, and was top of the class, although I got a D- and B- due to lack of course work...Now I'm gonna watch all the Egyptian students excel in these courses, while I'll be the one behind!

May Be Moving Blog to Wordpress

I've recently been wanting to blog from my iphone, but I'm unable to work the app...so among other reasons, I've decided to move my blogger blog to wordpress. It's the same url, except wordpress is the sub domain : http://www.maddiethehijabi.wordpress.com

I'm not 100% sure if I'll finalize the move. What do you guys think? I'm starting to wonder if its worth it lol. To be honest, wordpress surpasses blogger in so many things...

Day 6 on Juice Fast! My Progress so far

I haven't blogged in a while. And I've been wanting to blog about my first juice fast experience :3. It's been 6 days so far. I was inspired by a documentary called "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead", which documented a man going through a 60 day juice fast. He had AMAZING results! And all the people that followed him too :3. I went out and bought a juicer the next day (Philips Hr1861, the Juice Master uses it a lot).

At first I intended to do it to detox. Cuz God knows I need to lol. Also to improve my PCOS and other ailments. But when I saw the weight drop off those people, I was supercharged with inspiration to do it to lose weight too!

I'm only doing this for 10 days only though, then I plan to slowly incorporate solids in my diet such as raw veggies and fruits, smoothes..etc. I'm currently collecting a bunch of yummy raw food recipes for my transition :3.

So let's recap :

Day 1: Went fairly easy, unexpectedly. I suppose fasting Ramadan and other days has helped increase my stamina and discipline when it comes to food, esp reduced hunger pangs. Weight: 70.5 kg.

Day 2: This is when the hunger pangs started kicking in much harder lol. Then I had intense food cravings and fantasizing about all kinds of bad foods like pizza, hamburgers and such. But to be honest, I craved eating an apple more lol. I missed solid food. I also experienced some weakness and sleepiness. But this is to be expected. Weight: 69 kg.

Day 3: Hunger pangs, cravings and weakness continued. I've read its normal to go like this, or literally feel like crap the first few days, so I held on. I didn't feel horrible, but just didn't feel great. Weight: 68.6 kg.

Day 4: Pretty much the same as the day before. Weight: 68.2 kg.

Day 5: I started feeling my energy coming back, even more than before! It was great. My cravings and hunger pangs have also disappeared. But I think the energy had something to do with having my first pure fruit juice the night before, which gave me insomnia cuz I didn't know what to do with that energy! I guess vegetable juices for a few days made my blood sugar a bit low. Or , I dunno. Actually, I realized something by then, that I hadn't been drinking ENOUGH. I was only drinking maybe three 5oz glasses a day. And I read that you need to drink between 16-32oz a day! So I upped my juice intake. However, I found out I didn't lose any weight due to two glasses of pure fruit juice (which was SUPER SWEET O.O) the night before. Weight: 68.1 kg.

Day 6 (today): I feel pretty good like yesterday :). Not weak or anything if I just have a glass of sugary fruit juice in the morning. It was very sweet too, a bit too much for my taste too lol. It was a combination of grapes, apples and orange. I usually drink green juices such as carrots, cucumber, celery, kiwi, broccoli, zucchini, ginger root, beets, lemon, with apples for mild sweetness. Of course I variate these ingredients. Weight: 67.7kg (I subtracted 200 grams for clothes, although I should subtract half a kg).

I'll keep you updated as I go! :)

New Hijab Video Tutorial! "Violet"

Hijab Style Tutorial: "Violet"


A unique, cute voluminous headscarf style with a bit of bling. :3

Note: Obviously, the earrings you should use on your scarves should be the hook type. Don't use on delicate fabrics.

**For tutorials on how to make your own volume scrunchy/Flowerpin/Underwrap:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_shBOkkOM-o&feature=mr_meh&list=PLDB1C...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZD8XNdQg-FA&feature=BFa&list=PLDB1C838...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvADG4CN5bM&feature=BFa&list=PLDB1C838...

Special thanks to Resnemee and Dina Tokio for those wonderful tutorials! :).

Sorry for the delay! Had some rendering problems during editing. Unfortunately those stars didn't render correctly and it took me days trying to fix it. But..well I gave up lol. Silly, I know.

This was initially for my 3 Eid hijab tutorial special, but the last two didn't make it on time, so here it is as a separate video and style.

Eid Special: Hijab Style Tutorial #1: "Haifa" [HD]

Yay!! Finally! Hehe. Here ya go :). This is one of the three tutorials I made for Eid. The next two will up in a few hours. Enjoy! :). No Men Please ^_^.

Eid Special: Hijab Style Tutorial #1: "Haifa" [HD]

Hijabulous for Eid 2011!! 3 Tutorials tomorrow insha Allah

Asalam 3aleykom!!!its been soooo long since ive posted anything. Ramadan Kareem :).

Im glad to tell you girls that im currently editing a special eid hijab tutorial video, that features 3 styles. Now, they might look over the top to some, and lacking pizazz for others, but i'd like to think ive created a balance between festive and modest.

Im no longer going to just make tutorial vids. I also aim to address the mind , body and spirit in my upcoming "series". Because as you grow, you learn, and although im no way perfect, id like to share what ive learned. I also will teach myself new things as a lesson for myself and share it with you. So sharing the information will hopefully force me to better myself insha Allah. Does that make sense?

Anyway ive had to ask myself over and over the reason why ive decided to make videos again. At first i thought it was the attention. Its nice to have but i dont need it. What i realized is that i wish someone had shared these tutorials, knowledge or whatever with me when i was younger. So i see myself in a lot of my younger viewers. I also realized that i truly love my sisters out there, and i want to make them happy somehow. So many girls were disapointed at me for leaving and not answering their requests, so i feel bad. The ladt reason is because i feel like i need to correct the message i gave in the past, which was a bit superficial. So may Allah guide me and everyone and i prAy my iman doesnt weaken while i try my best to give something back.